well its like 2:30am. i dont want to sleep because the sooner i sleep the sooner ill be leaving home  i think that everything will be alright once i get back down there.  im gunna be running on like 3 hours of sleep. in like 3 hours im gunna be getting up at 5am.. YES 5am to get the Jordan XIII... oh sigh... i love shoes.. here are the babies that im picking up!!!

sexy huh?! and theyre reflective. welll yeah... ace is picking me up at like 5am so we could line up out side of finishline at great mall. crazy huh?! stupid things people do for shoes. i predict that im gunna start crying like an ass when i leave 2morrow. i get so emotional when it comes to that boy. i dont think that it's a bad thing, atleast im emotional about someone that i know cares about me and that i will know for the rest of my life whether i like it or not. well tomorrow will be the last day that i see ace for like 4 months.. maybe spring break.. but most likely in 4 months. that makes me so sad. im talking abtou the boy that i've talked to everyday on the phone since the 7th grade. if not everyday atleast 5 out of the 7 days of the week. the guy we lives lie 2 minutes away from me and who spends 90% of his summer time with me. god im gunna miss my best friend. yeah i knwo that i talk abotu him alot. i could go on for hours... maybe even weeks talkign abotu him. but he makes me happy.

i cant believe that 5 weeks has gone by so fast. thank you to everyone who hung out iwth me over break, and rescuing me from house arrest. it means the world to me. you guys are what makes me wanna come home so much. thank you for driving me from place to place. thank you for making me luagh. thank you for picking up from random places. thank you for goin gout of your way to visit me becasue i cant go out. thank you for driving me back home at 10pm even though you didnt have to, but so i wouldnt get in trouble by my parents. i love you all very much.

im soooo gunna miss my family. if you guys didnt know my dad is like one of my best friends in the world. like right after my megazord. he means the world to me. he's the kind of guy who would give his daughters the world if he could. he woudl wake up in the middle of the night jst to make us food. he even sold football tickets to go to spend time with his kids. he's the only other person in the world besides ace that makes me cry when i leave. i love my papa.

to the SD people... im excited to see you all  please dont mind me if i seem kinda out of it. im just homesick. im the kind of person who doesnt like change. as sad as it may sound going to SD is one of the scariest things that i've ever done. i mean... leaving my safe zone and going out. i went to SD to see what the world has in store. sorry im getting all philisophical.i mean.. when i drive around with my friends to different places or like with my psisses to exchanges, i look around and i see the surroundings and i'm so grateful that im able to experience this. im grateful that i could go out and see beyond my home. my worst fear is to become a townie, like live in the same place for like 50 years. i mean.. im gunna end up living in the bay area again b/c all my family is up here. BUt i atleast wanna make the most of it while im still young. The issue on boys... you know my stance. im so confused abotu what i want in life. i mean i fucked up my first semester. god that was an eye opener. NEVER AGAIN WILL THAT HAPPEN.

well i need to go pack! hahah yes... i havent packed yet. the procrastination begins. i have psi chi formals tomorrow. CONGRATULATIONS BOYS! and a special congratulation to hubey! my date!!! i hope that im a good date... okay people i swear that ill post my pictures form break up sooner or later. and the pictures that will be taken tonight at formals... thanks for listenign to my emotional bitching.

okay its once again 4am.... dude i've been MIA from my xanga... but i decided just to udate all you nosey peopel abotu my life. wlel umm HAPPY  NEW YEARS hahah hellal late. im going back to san deezy in like 5 days. jeez that went by so fast. im gunna miss everyone here in norcal. if anyone from SD is planning on roadtripping back to norcal PLEASE CALL ME!!!! IM DOWN TO GO! lets see... my high lights of this break... i have a shit load of pictures.. im post them up later.... the best part of this was hanging out iwht my megazord and all my high school homies. i never realized how much i could miss anyone. call my crazy but i think i wanna and might have to transfer up here for school. i mean SD is great but nothing is like home. and im the type of person who HATES change. its just really hard for me to adjust to new things. i love waking up in the morning knowing that im home. i love my big bed. i love having my own bathroom. i love being able to JUST CHILL. i love laying here in my bed with my TV in my room in dead silence without noisy ass neighbors. i love driving and not having to mooch off people, thanks to allt he peopel in SD who drive my ass around. i love monday night bowling. i love my high school group, you guys made high school worthwhile. i love my family. i love my cousins, always finding new places to eat. i love my always having my sister around to hang out with. i love my dad's homecooking. i love eating food that wasnt once frozen. i love being able to use the house phone on weekdays and not having to wait until past 9pm. i love seeing my 2 bunnies. i love seeing my god-daughter. i love babysitting my friend's neices and nephews. i love random food runs with the guys. i love the guys. i love my friends random visits to my house. i love having a washing machine and dryer right down stairs and not YONDER. i love not having to pay $6 just to do my laundry. i love my new memory foam thing on my bed. i how all my shoes are here. i love how my internet connection here is soooooo good. i love driving around and actually knwoing where i am. most of all i love seeing my breastest friend in the whole world.... come on... if you know me... you know who im talkign about.... my dear cervaysa baysa. he doesnt even knwo that i have a xanga... hahah lets hope he doesnt find out or he'll call me a faggit for always talkign about him. PEOPLE PLEASE DONT MIND ME... im just realizing that im leaving home soon and nt coming back for like 4 months... so im already gettign homesick. didja knwo that everytime that i leave norcal and im saying bye to ace... i start crying like an ASS. hella embarrassing huh?! ill probably get all deep later when im already in SD and im missing him even more. i cant believe the 5 weeks went bye so fast.

to the people in SD: please remidn me to study. my grades were so shitty this semester. so everytime you see me, and you KNOW that i have something academic related.... then drag my ass back to my place and MAKE me study. no more partying... hahah NO REALLY. i need to stop that.. or atleast just limit it. i really really need to get my shit straight. im so dissapointed in myself abtou my grades. im serious... this semester im gunna be hardcore. no fuckign around.

okay thats enough rambling... ill post pictures up later when im nto half asleep.

okay one more paper and and one more final and im all set. WHOO HOO!! so this is my little break. and to tell people about my week. this was a very sleep deprived week. i spent a night a fucking lounge in tenocha, and i didnt accomplish anything. my finals were EHHH.... theres always summer school. it made me realized that i need to get my shit straight. i need to stop dicking around. well highlights of this week... me and patty went to barona. we lost money. but hey we took a picture of a christmas tree...

 we were escorted out side b/c apparently we cant take pictures. it would be nice if they put a fucking sign up or something. i figured that since people take pictures with their big ass checks i thought i coudl take a picture witha fucking christmas tree. haha

i got spend time with my friends this last night. i miss hanging out with them. here are my future roomies :) lisa and erika.

note to self: never ever ever ever go into kevin and norman's room...

here's a picture of me and some ugly guy haha..

and another one with lisa may

here i am being a leech... w/ this guy from norcal

and here's me and erika.. my soccer mom

thats it for today. since some bitch is hella anxious to see the pictures.. YEAH YOU! hahaha... well yeah time for me to keep dicking around.  im so excited to go home. back to the yay area.

well i dont know where the weekend went. i really need to study though! i dont have finals until wednesday, ill just study then. next thing you know... ill be procrastinating... and it'll be like 5am wednesday morning and i'll be blogging. well here are pictures frm over the weekend. i took this one out a while ago... but here it is again. i wasnt sure if i could put it up or not... if there are complains... then just tell me... heres a picture of alpha gamma/ rho pledge class... its not all of us though  but this is the most people we got so far! i thought we're brother sister frat sorority. im j/k i love you guys . i swear ill shrink my pictures... im just too lazy to resize them

heres a pic of ps. patty, me, pb vince, and ps diana

well saturday morning.. i had breakfat with my roomies... here's trish and me

heres all 4 of us...

on the way home today... we were able to squish 8 people in a 5 person car.. meky on driver, me on shotgun, janet and diana2 were beside the front seats... hahahah HELLA GHETTO... i had to scoot my chair as up forward as possible so they coudl fit.. then teri, lesli, and diana were sitting down... and if you dont notice... theres kim do laying on them. HAHAHA

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well yeah that was my weekend.... i'll be sure to blog before i leave... so wont say my goodbyes yet. okay time to go eat with my big bro :) here we are: